post, secrets.
Thursday, May 29, 2008, 10:33 PM
I'll be back again.




If ever someone tells me 'forever' exists, I'll probably still believe in 'always'.
But no, ever since you took it all away from her and I, I've never thought forever exists.
No one can ever claim the ownership of something/someone perpetually even if he/she has the possession of it(if ever) for a light year.
Dont tell me about forever, dont tell me about believing eternity because one thing for sure, I know and have seen it for myself the human heart is so warped, so imperfectly perfect, so untrustworthy.



Everything has an expiry date.
It's only a matter of time.
For everything, Lord, I beg you to just make them a long one.



What struck me the most today was 165cm guy.
In a few words, I knew we knew.
I havent explicitly told anyone about this but he unfolded my worry without prompting and examined the roots.
I had the exact same sentiments and I thank God because I neednt go through a whole set of explanations just to drive my message across.
Because someone knew and someone other than me understood.
Although I didnt tell how grateful I was at that instant, I felt good because I could seek advice from someone else now.



On the flipside, I recognised the gravity of my worry.
I wish I can do something to help you.
He too, wants to save you.
I'm very worried, really.



And on top of this,
I'm concerned about the operation she will be going through tomorrow.
Not major but it's internal.
Although through the texts we exchanged, I could really sense the optimism in her(as usual), yet nevertheless, my worry wouldnt ease so quickly.
Oh Lord, please cover this friend of mine.
I hope the chocolates I will be bringing for you will taste like victory, I know you will pull this through.



Fall back on your dream girl.
And the girls and I will always be there for you.



Well, company always makes me feel better.
Bubble tea and heart talks.
Thanks lots girls.

Lord, why is there misery in this world.
Is it a stepping stone to becoming stronger,
or is it just a default inevitable outcome.
I love this world as much as You do.
I love my friends and family as much as you love Your people.
Call me selfish or whatnot.
But no one likes seeing the people around them down and out because it will become a chain effect sooner or later and ultimately, they will have their fair share of befriending misery.

Maybe I should understand life better instead of questioning the High Almighty.
Lord, bless the people with more love.
Because it makes the world go round.
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and for a really long time my tears feels like flowing.




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